Thursday, June 17, 2010

My Broken Heart

I lost my 2nd mother today at 7:20 am. She's gone and I'd give anything to bring her back.

Rena and I met in the Boston airport 20 years ago. She hired me to be the nanny to her 4 boys. I was terrified. Never been that far from home, but the instant I saw her I knew that everything was going to be okay. She wrapped me in her arms and told me how happy she was to see me. From that day on our relationship grew into something so special that there just aren't words to describe it. Rena told me that I was the daughter she never had and I was blessed to have two mothers that loved me. My love for her only grew over the years. She met Dave and loved him too. . .just like she'd known him for forever.

Rena could disagree with someone yet make them feel good about it. She loved unconditionally. She loved life. She wasn't afraid to try new things, meet new people and welcome you into her home and life. She loved completely.

Cancer took Rena from us today and with her a piece of my heart will forever be gone. This is THE MOST painful thing I've ever been through. I have to wonder. . .how long will it hurt this bad? Does the pain ever go away? I serve a wonderful and mighty Lord and I just have to trust that He knows what is best. My heart is just so broken.

In this video that her son Brett put together, you may recognize me in an orange sweater and much shorter hair, but what I hope you see is that she had such a zeal for life and deep love for family.

Slideshow: momfinal - Slideshow

I love you Rena. I will always love you! I miss you already so much.