Thursday, June 17, 2010

My Broken Heart

I lost my 2nd mother today at 7:20 am. She's gone and I'd give anything to bring her back.

Rena and I met in the Boston airport 20 years ago. She hired me to be the nanny to her 4 boys. I was terrified. Never been that far from home, but the instant I saw her I knew that everything was going to be okay. She wrapped me in her arms and told me how happy she was to see me. From that day on our relationship grew into something so special that there just aren't words to describe it. Rena told me that I was the daughter she never had and I was blessed to have two mothers that loved me. My love for her only grew over the years. She met Dave and loved him too. . .just like she'd known him for forever.

Rena could disagree with someone yet make them feel good about it. She loved unconditionally. She loved life. She wasn't afraid to try new things, meet new people and welcome you into her home and life. She loved completely.

Cancer took Rena from us today and with her a piece of my heart will forever be gone. This is THE MOST painful thing I've ever been through. I have to wonder. . .how long will it hurt this bad? Does the pain ever go away? I serve a wonderful and mighty Lord and I just have to trust that He knows what is best. My heart is just so broken.

In this video that her son Brett put together, you may recognize me in an orange sweater and much shorter hair, but what I hope you see is that she had such a zeal for life and deep love for family.

Slideshow: momfinal - Slideshow

I love you Rena. I will always love you! I miss you already so much.


Princess Jessie Pants said...

Stacey, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I watched the slide show & it looks like she was a beautiful woman with many, many people who love her. I will pray for you & the family in the coming weeks & months as you deal with your grief. I hope that during this time you can remember some of your fun times with her.

Love & hugs.

Anonymous said...

Stacey--I'm sorry for your loss!! I will keep you and the family in my thoughts and prayers!! Hugs!!

Janette said...

Hi Stacey,I truely feel for you,this is such a dreadful time for you and all that loved her,looking at the slideshow,all I could think of was what a fab life she seemed to have,such a beautiful lady also...I think the real tragedy would have been if you had never been a part of that,your memories will comfort you,you were blessed to have known her,hugs,

Lori Renn said...

Stacey, my heart aches for you. What a beautiful woman and a beautiful life. I know the pain of losing someone you love so much. I hope you find comfort in the Lord and your loved ones.

LG said...

Iam so sorry for your loss Stacey. Im sure your mom will be greatly missed

martha velasco prieto. said...

stacey im sorry for your loss.

Christie Bryant said...

What a beautiful woman to have left this earth, she has so obviously touched your life and left her wonderful mark.

I am so sorry for your loss and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Jill said...

Stacey, I am so sorry. Thank God for gracing the earth with such a beautiful and loving woman, even if only for a short time. Someday, you will see her again.

Judith Riddle said...

Hi Stacey,

I came across your blog just by chance. Very sorry to hear of your loss. I can relate because I have two mothers whom I love dearly. My biological mom and my spiritual mother. I see that you are a Christian. Praise God! The Lord will be with you in your pain and strengthen you. Even though we grieve, we don't grieve as individuals who have no hope (1 thessalonians 4). Our hope is that we will see our loved ones again in heaven. That is a promise from the Lord. I am very new to blogging. I just started a devotional blog this past week. Visit me at

Talk with you soon!

The Journey to Wealth said...

Hi Stacey,

I am sorry for your loss. You where and are blessed with love.

Rbarakat said...

SO sorry for your loss Stacey, she sounds like a very special lady. ((hugs))

Rbarakat said...

SO sorry for your loss Stacey, she sounds like a very special lady. ((hugs))

mimijudy1975 said...

I just found your blog today after looking at the Bald Dragonfly Blog. Losing someone you love so much is so painful.Whenever I hear of someone like you,I wish there was a way to take your pain away. My husband died 31 years ago and I thought I would never smile again. The hurt will lessen as time goes on. She was a beautiful lady and I'm sure loved you so much. Her love for you will continue even though she is in heaven. Keep in touch with her family if you can .
I have 2 grandsons who want to know so much about their grandpa Jon they never got a chance to meet. It is helpful to talk about him. I hope you can share some of the happy and maybe funny memories you have from being with her with your family and friends.
I truly believe Heaven has windows and in her special way she is still with you.
It will be wonderful when we get to be in heaven with everyone we love.
I will pray for you and take comfort that God will never leave your side .
Judy Hayes

Paper Addict said...

Hi Stacey, I am very sorry for your loss. You can see the love and compassion in her eyes. You are truly blessed to have had such a remarkable person in your life. Most people never really are fortunate enough to have a person like that in their life. You are both amazing women. Will keep you in my prayers. And hope you too can find comfort and peace with the lord. And am sure I can speak for all when I say, we are all here for you. Blessings to you and your family...Ronnie